editor's note Grace and Gratitude...
As usual, I was working on multiple projects simultaneously along
with juggling conversations with the people in front of me, discussing edits for this month's issue of LA YOGA. And while some of
my work was backed up, what I was immersed in at the time wasn't
when the unthinkable happened – my computer crashed with the
dreaded blue screen of death.
I hoped for a miracle even as I knew that neither tears nor begging,
pleading, entreaties to Ganesh, nor even running from the house
screaming would bring my trusted laptop back to life. I did not rule
out a miracle because, after all, more dramatic shifts have happened
in the world, even today. So I called for a computer revival: I telephoned the experts who specialize in resuscitating digital equipment.
“Would you like an appointment for today or tomorrow?”
“Is there any real answer other than right now?” I laughed.
What about the option of having someone appear at the exact
moment of computer meltdown – or even five minutes prior to the
event, when they could adjust the circumstances and provide the
electronic operation for interrupted performance? Doesn’t years of
Yoga practice allow for the bending of time and space? Isn’t there a
siddhi, one of the special powers Patanjali describes, that we earn?
If we just do enough samyama won’t we master this portion of the
And shouldn’t Yoga somehow give us a free pass – shouldn’t it
remove all of our obstacles?
In the midst of this small crisis, my focus was on the free pass Yoga
does provide: which is to handle the activity with grace and gratitude,
to take action with clarity of mind and heart, and to expend just
enough energy to perform and then to let it go – and to be able to
move on to the next tasks at hand. These involved my full attention
during a series of meetings, teaching, and sitting down at a desktop to
continue the process of creating the magazine. While I did so, I chose
a playlist that would soothe my state of mind and soften the worry.